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iceprincessrisa
Wow, I haven't been on LJ in forever but I didn't want to come back because of three people. I'm not friends with them anymore, but thats okay. I'm not online much anymore anyway.

OMG! Hot, really hot guy at school! *squeals* My best friend even thinks he might like me too! Alot of things have changed since I last updated my journal, but thats a good thing. I'm not depressed so much anymore, I'm hardly home. I don't have bad grades either, though dad isn't too happy with me..

I was left last Sunday at 3am and left a note then didn't pick up my phone. Didn't help I was sleeping at a guy's house. xD I spent the entire day with him after we woke up. Yes, this is the sexy guy from school I'm talking about. Then tuesday I went over to my best friend's house because she was really depressed and I was worried about her. I got in so much trouble for that shit.. Even my brother yelled at me.

It's kind of weird though. I don't fangirl much anymore. Unless you count random small squeals over the hot guy from school. I haven't even played video games much anymore. Its not that I don't like them, its that I don't have the time.

Junior year has gotten better. Homecomming is in a week but I've had my dress for about a month and my jewelry for about that long too. My best friend is coming over that night to do my make up and hair. It'll be great. I don't have a date for homecomming yet I'm still planning on going. Besides, alot can happen in a week.

There's alot more thats happened in the past month or so, but I'm too lazy to type everything that happened. xD

Current Mood: content content
Current Music: Hug [English] - TVXQ

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iceprincessrisa
I. Am. Going. To. Hate. Being. A. Junior.

That is all.

Current Location: My Special Place
Current Mood: drained drained
Current Music: We Are One - Lion King

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iceprincessrisa
I had a journal entry all planned out. But I forgot it. x.x

Gaia is not so much luff anymore. Gaia's Twin site it. xD

Current Location: Uh, somewhere? xD
Current Mood: chipper chipper
Current Music: Incomplete - JaeJoong (I finally found it!)

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iceprincessrisa
So my Gaia account got hacked yesterday right? I went to one of my mule accounts and started over from there. It's taken quite a bit of work on my part and help from some friends of mine, but I've gotten back off my feet again. Not many people from my friendslist know about this account.

Who knows about it? Lets see, Kitty, Beathanny, and Angel. I also met someone who's as crazy about Kuronue as I am. I'm just facing the long task of regaining the items I'd lost from the hacking. The mods on Gaia haven't gotten back to me yet. But a friend of mine told me that I'd probably not get my items back.

If he's right, there's no sense and waiting on the hope I'll get my items back. Which means I have to quest to get Syria again. But I will get her again! I know it! After I get my CoCo and Moshi, I'm going to get my pendant again. My goal for these three items is Christmas. Hopefully I can make it.

Current Location: Atemu's Arms
Current Mood: content content
Current Music: Se7en - The One

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iceprincessrisa
Well, I'm not happy. Things were really looking up for my mood until this morning. It's not even noon and this has been one of the worst days of my life. Okay, so not the worst but still!

I'm an idiot though. My account on Gaia was hacked because I was stupid and forgot admins don't ask for your password. Only one other person knows about it. I almost don't want to tell anyone but I need to get it out of my system somehow.

I was shaking terribly about two hours ago. It really sucked. I had just gotten my Demonic Pendant too! I filed a report about it, but I don't know if I'm going to get it back or not. I still can't get into my account.

I honestly don't know why I like Gaia so much. I'm bored anyway but I'm not as bored when I'm on Gaia. So I just have to live with the fact I'll be spending months getting the items I lost. Like my CoCo. That was the first item I ever quested for. And now it's gone! *sobs* Syria..

Current Location: Atemu's Arms
Current Mood: crushed crushed
Current Music: Let Me Go - Westlife

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iceprincessrisa
http://www.greatestjournal.com/users/chibiaarachan/tag/ranting

Thats a few things that have been on my mind lately. I know I'm going to regret posting this, but oh well.

Current Location: Atemu's Arms
Current Mood: indescribable indescribable
Current Music: Reflections - Mulan[Korean]

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iceprincessrisa
I feel almost indifferent to alot of things lately. I'm not going to say what - or who - because I know certain people will get upset about it. I'm still debating on if I want to keep my LJ or not.

Two good things- I found my missing Yu-Gi-Oh! cards and my cousin said that he might send me the Blue Eyes Ultimate Dragon card he has. If he had three Blue Eyes White Dragons, I'm sure he'd keep it himself.

He also said if he got a Dark Magician Girl, he'd send it to me. I need to go and buy more Yu-Gi-Oh! cards myself. I just don't have the money to do so.

Current Location: Mom's House
Current Mood: indifferent indifferent

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iceprincessrisa
I'm not a happy Risa-chan... I'm missing one of my most favorite Duel Monsters cards, my Black Luster Soldier. Actually, I'm missing all my ritual monsters and a bunch of my fusion monsters. Luckily, I'm not missing my Blue Eyes White Dragon or my Dark Magician or I'd really go insane..!

But the Black Luster Soldier is my third favorite of the cards I have. So I'm dying to find it. What I need to do is calmly go through all the cards that aren't organized in the bindar. If I can't find them then, I might really go insane. I have no idea where else they'd be.

I remember taking all my cards to Mom's and I swear I didn't get them out. Even if I did, I cleaned up everything. I've gone through all the bags of stuff I took with me. I know it.

This is driving me up the wall, seriously. x_____x;;;

Current Location: The World That Never Was
Current Mood: distressed distressed

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iceprincessrisa
Yes, I made a Yu-Gi-Oh! forum. Nya, I dunno how active it will get. But it pwns in looks. If GX even thinks about touching my forum, I'll murder someone. I can't STAND GX, at all.

Linky: http://z9.invisionfree.com/WingedDragonRa

No posty until I say so. It's supposed to be an Atemu based forum, but I'm scrapping ideas by just to get it Yu-Gi-Oh! based. *dies*

And! Muahaha! I finished chapter one.. of my Atem/Amelia sequel. I wrote that first. Stupid ideas. -____-;;;

Edit- Okay, you can join/post in meh forum now.

Current Location: My Happy Place a.k.a. Atemu's arms
Current Mood: accomplished accomplished
Current Music: My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dion

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iceprincessrisa
I keep squealing about how sexy Atemu sounds when he's laughing evily. Wahhh!

Don't kill me for this Riku, but.. Atemu's evil laugh is so sexier then Bakura's. Wait, I think it's more that he doesn't sound insane like Bakura. *hides*

Current Location: Atemu's Palace
Current Mood: bouncy bouncy
Current Music: Atemu's Evil Laugh

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iceprincessrisa
I don't know if I'll keep updating my LJ and if I do, it's not going to be any of the 'pour my heart out' entries. And it probably won't be every day, or even every other day. So yeah.

HOMG!! I'm so happy! I can have carmel in my coffee everyday now! I love my mommy for showing me what I could get so that I could. =33 Coffee withdrawl=as bad as anime withdrawl=very very very bad

Current Location: The World That Never Was
Current Mood: calm calm
Current Music: Vietnam - Pink

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iceprincessrisa
I still haven't decided if I want to keep my LJ or not. I hate hurting people. If it's hurting someone by telling them the truth that they need to hear, I can live with that. If they get hurt because of my insecurities, I'll feel bad. Everyone tells me they can live with the truth, but can they really? Or rather... Can they live with the things I may say?

Three days ago, August 10th had meaning to me. The one other person this would have meaning to probably either forgot or gives it little thought.

Current Location: Mom's House
Current Mood: indescribable indescribable
Current Music: Power Of Love - Celine Dion

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iceprincessrisa
Yes, I'm lucky. I'm lucky to have Mandy and Dan as my friends for they just saved me.

Depression hit me tonight when I got online. It's still not gone but I'm better. Both of them promised that I could call/txt/contact them at anytime and they'd help me in anyway they can if possible.

To me... It doesn't matter if the two of them are dating, they're still the greatest friends I could ask for.

I had a really emo entry typed up but I decided not to put it on my LJ but my GJ instead. The GJ no one but Mandy and Dan know about. I know for a fact I would have hurt many people's feelings if I had posted it here.

Risa-chan has to wear a happy mask to not upset anyone. Frankly, I hate having to pretend I'm happy. To pretend I have no worries of what is to come..

But you know what? I do. And I voiced most of them to Mandy who was able to just listen and let me get it out. That helped alot. With Mandy, I'm able to voice anything and everything that's bothering me. She and I are alot alike, enough so that I swear we are sisters. She's not much different in age, except her being born in April and me in June. Only a two month difference in age.

Yes, everyone knows I have insecurities but no one knows exactly how many. I voiced alot of them to Mandy tonight and it helped me feel better.

I'm almost tempted to delete the GJ everyone knows and delete my LJ. Then I won't have to worry about keeping a happy mask on when I'm updating my own journal. I can do it certain places but not others.

But don't worry. Unhappy Risa-chan is being hidden from most as of the moment I finish this update. With that means the true me, what I'm really feeling, will be out of reach to most people. I suppose you could blame certain people for this that I have never gotten over. And it all started early October of last year.

Current Location: Mom's House
Current Mood: crushed crushed
Current Music: Tri-Angle - TVXQ

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iceprincessrisa
Ever since the last update, DA's been an ass to me. Okay, it was fine until I was trying to upload some pictures onto my DA account since I've gotten to use a scanner.

It's a jpg image, which DA doesn't need a preview image for, and it keeps telling me it needs a preview image. Ack.

My DA account: http://iceprincessrisa.deviantart.com

I really need to be able to upload stuff. Yeah, I can do it while I'm at home and this is a slow computer, but still. DA makes me upset.

And I'm hungry.

Current Location: Mom's House
Current Mood: annoyed annoyed
Current Music: Forever Yours - Nightwish

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iceprincessrisa
Fangirling over Atem and Marik, under cut for Riku's sake. Seriously, I dunno if she'd want to read this.Collapse )

I've been daydreaming about my Atem ficcy and I'm getting so many ideas for both sides to it. I just need to sit down and get past the first chapter.

And to finish the entry: "Oh mighty protector of the sun and sky. I beg of thee, please heed my cry. Transform thy self from orb of light and bring me victory in this fight. I beseech thee, grace our humble game, but first I shall call out thy name! Winged Dragon of Ra!"

Cookies to those who know what that chant is.

...I'm wide awake yet haven't slept yet. And Mom's coming to pick me up about 1:30. Actually, I am kinda sleepy but I can't sleep. I haven't even packed yet.

I'll be visiting her for a few days. You know what that means? I won't be online much so the best way to get me is though cell phone and email.

Current Location: Atem's Palace
Current Mood: giggly giggly
Current Music: Egyptian Eyes - Becca Schack

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iceprincessrisa
Under a cut incase you don't want to read meh ranting against the god of the UnderworldCollapse )

It wasn't that bad of a rant, I just had to get that out of my system.

Even though I have an online journal, I am planning to start another one, a more private one. This one will hold the contents of the new two years, of important secrets known only to myself. It will be the first time in a very long time that I have attempted to keep a journal on paper.

Anyway, I know my major and minor for college.

Major: English; Minor: Spanish

I'll talk to my step-dad Jimmy today about majoring in English since he has, three I think, degrees in English.

Current Location: Atem's Palace
Current Mood: cranky cranky
Current Music: Incomplete - Backstreet Boys

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iceprincessrisa
So, Kitty and I were talking about GX earlier right? We both hate it. Someone, who's name is not to be mentioned in my journal, made Kitty dislike all of YGO because she went obsessive over GX. Seriously though, what is the point to GX? The best characters are in it and you only see the best cards in one duel because no one but Yugi uses them.

Unlike me who is Atem obsessed, Kitty-chan loved YGO because of the Dark Magician. Him only showing up in GX for 10 minutes made her dislike it more then she already did. My dislike for GX comes from me thinking it all pointless and not having the best characters kills it for me. So pretty much, Kitty and I are alike in the way of hating GX when the original series was WAY better.

Anyway, we got to talking about how the pairing of the DM and Atem is sexy. Seriously, it is! So what are we doing? RPing it of course! xD She showed me a picture of human DM and HOMG, he's hot! Seriously!

http://fa.mediaminer.org/97/156797.jpg

See?! *scurries off to continue RPing*

Current Mood: indescribable indescribable
Current Music: Desert Rose - Sting

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iceprincessrisa
HOMG, for the last half an hour, I haven't been squealing over Atem, but squealing over Mahado. ^_____________________^;;;

Hehe, he's Kitty-chan's favorite. Who went on a killing spree because they say "Mahad" and not Mahado in the anime. -___-;;

Mahado's so pretty but definately doesn't have the sex appeal Atem has. (Yes, I know I'm probably the only one who thinks so but I don't care! ^^;; ) I think capes add the sex appeal a guy has, it certainly adds to Atem's! ^.^!

Pretty MahadoCollapse )

Smexy AtemCollapse )

I think it's been about a week since Saint Seiya has entered my mind on my own. O.o That normally doesn't happen. But what can I say? I'm obsessed with Atem. And trying to work on two of my fanfics. Most of the ones I need to write/finish are Saint Seiya and it's too hard for me to write them at the moment. Currently I'm just working on my Atem ficcy and my Kuronue ficcy.

Current Location: Atem's Palace
Current Mood: bouncy bouncy

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iceprincessrisa
I'm so proud of myself! I just finished drawing one of my dream avis from Gaia and it came out perfect! (except for her hands, I hate hands. x__x;;) I wanna scan it in to show off, but I can't. *glares at Justin* Stupid Grr-face hasn't fixed my computer yet!

Current Location: Atem's Palace
Current Mood: accomplished accomplished
Current Music: You Raise Me Up - Josh Groban

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iceprincessrisa
I think someone up there loves me. I went to the store today and didn't have to see Chris because he wasn't working. I'm getting a bit tired of how he always tries to get my attention when HE was the one who rejected me. After he did, my feelings for him kinda just.. died.

The other part of why I say someone up there loves me is that Mommy told me I can wait to call Lindt until Tuesday. Her friend Becky is gonna go in and put in a good word for meh. ^.^ Mom said to give Becky until Monday to do it. So if I don't hear anything by Tuesday afternoon, I'll call. That also gives me time to get up the courage to do so. Yes, I can't handle rejection well.

Current Location: Atem's Palace
Current Mood: calm calm
Current Music: Far Away - Nickelback

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